Stars To See Or Just Pretend...

Jim - ummmm.... nothing to say but quickly...
- New song on the journal (decided to give my readers something more peaceful) from HELLOGOODBYE!!
- Finished my course selection ... except the alternates
- Hellogoodbye is wonderful
- That flat note Kevin kept hitting was driving me insane
- Colleen is great
- Courtney looks cool in a skirt
- The word "jigga" has become part of my everyday speech
- NO MORE SPANISH!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
- grrr... I want that beatles 1 CD.....Grr...
- Senses Fail album or Cure album... Which one is it Colleen? Which are you gonna get me?
- The Ataris sound great live
- Cameron said I should be nominated for GHP next year, but knowing me & Dunaway's relationship... HAHAHA...
::Daily Lyrics:: - the miles of air and road and land/ That separate me from all my plans/ Were havin' havin' havin' havin' fun/ But something something tells me I miss someone/ B-but I hope hope hope you didn't forget me I couldn't/ Forget you the whole time I always knew I knew ~ "Call And Return" - Hellogoodbye

But Deep Down Inside, I Hoped I Was Wrong...

Jim - I feel like I should be mad or yelling at the world because my life sucks... or even rebuking my friends after reading something they wrote... but the truth is... I'm happy... no... I'm ready to get out of this quandary of death I tend to call home... but I'm not feeling as bad as I usually do about weekends... Maybe it's because I had such a good week before... I'm excited... I really hope I got into musical threatre... and if I didn't - I'm gonna feel like my life is stupid-pointless-spiraling into a nodule cutthroat-road to madness that will end in complete failure for the WHOLE year - then it will be directly followed by 1 - 3 weeks of depression... Aye me.... but!... no need to get depressed until tom.... and even then, it's going to be fun deciding my classes next year... I've got to make some hard decisions about my schedule next year... it's going to be hard deciding what courses to take (...that was repetitive...)... I mean - other than academic... if I don't make musical theatre, I'll have a whole hour open with nothing to do along with the other hour that's open that I filled with Heath & PC Apps this year... Then I got my 4 core classes and Chorale... Taking Spanish again is not an option.... I mean... it's gonna be the last alternative to my time... and I'll take almost ANYTHING but that class... I love Spanish... but I I don't' like Spanish class... I don't need that to lower my GPA... I want to take Music Theory... or Men's Chorus again... but I also need to take PE again so I can graduate...unless I don't take a lunch again like I did this year... BLAH.... PLEASE!... Help me out here guys... I'm open for suggestions
::Daily Lyrics:: - Breathe this life away from me/ A breath away will always be/ How you, you and me will always be/ Take my last breath its your to keep/ With a gun in her hand she's my shooting star... ~ "Breathe" - A Cutthroat Kiss

Fail To Find Solution You Only Found Confusion...

Jim - This week..... how do I sum it up?...... CRAZY!... Monday and Tuesday were catch up days for me after being sick last week... if you skip Wednesday when we had an awesome time with the opera, we run right into Thursday... where that pretty silver Ford Escape came into my life... It's sitting in the driveway behind my mother's majestic blue Ford Excursion... It's a great feeling of pride... Especially when you made your own down payment on a vehicle... I've been saving since 3rd grade for my car...and now... at the end of 10th... almost 8 years later, I've saved quite a sum... Today was the musical theatre audition... I did A LOT better that I thought I'd do... I was a lot less nervous since my first audition in chorale earlier this year.... I guess putting myself under pressure has paid off a lot... I'm getting better at handling it... I think I got in... what probably tipped me over the edge was my ability to play the piano and several other instruments... I'm sure Steven Estep got in because Mrs. Davidson asked about the differences in Me (baritone) and Steven's (tenor) vocal ranges... She also asked if I could sing tenor... I told her I could, but weird things might happen... HAHAHA..... ::Has a Chorale Flashback::.... be she seemed rather interested... but you never know about Mrs. Davidson... Joan is in... she didn't even have to audition... Brittany Johnson gave a DROP DEAD performance... it was sooooo wonderful... she's one of the best vocalist Davidson has... she's amazing... I left... IN MY NEW CAR!!!... or suv rather.... I drove home... it was rather grand I must say... blah... And here I am... I like the Shortbus Boys... great group.. I gotta get their album...
::Daily Lyrics:: - I don't know why, but I still care about you/ And I'll be there to catch you when you're fallin'/ When you life flips around/ And I'll be there to pull you out of this one/ This mess you fell into ~ "I'll Be There" - Shortbus Boys

What A Bundle Of Joy...

Jim - AHH!.. Finally this Opera is starting to happen. It wasn't the most beautiful thing today, but I had a weird sense of confidence... I guess I'm going to have to considering We don't have Nick to cover our backs... So I'm kind of taking his place and singing out ALOT more... But it puts more pressure on me if I mess up... it's kind of like my first step of any form of leadership for my section... But I think Phil will be a great section leader. He has what it takes and I'm glad I had the opportunity to sit by him at the beginning of chorale... He taught me some things. WEEEEE!... I took my new 2003 Ford Escape for a ride this evening.. We haven't bought it yet, but we'll have it in a little bit... I'm so excited... man... That little suv has a lot of kick for a V6 engine. The first time I touched the accelerator, it lurched backward... no... I do understand pedal pressure... but man... it's REALLY sensitive... and it's hard to tell when you're pushing the gas pedal because it feels like it's not even their... it's too smooth.... AHH... anyway... about 2 more days left to review for musical theatre and I'm determined to make this audition worth something... This is the year where I've made nothing worth anything... missed Allstate, bombed all other auditions, and some other stuff I can't think of... but this is going to be the goal I accomplish... A lot of people are trying out for it now, and I'll have some competion... but I'm sure I can still get in. I'm happy that Sarah Price, Steven Estep, Joan Estep, Tyler Bugg, and a few other people are auditioning because I know they have a great chance of getting in and I'll enjoy their comradeship (is that a word?....).. Blah... Moving on... nothing for me to say... (besides the above...)
::Daily Lyrics:: - Been told when a boy kiss a girl/ Take a trip around the world/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop, m'bop bop shuop)/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop, m'bop bop shuop)/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop) yeah, she say ya do. (Bop shuop)/ My girl says when I kiss her lips/ Gets a thrill through her fingertips/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop, m'bop bop shuop)/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop, m'bop bop shuop)/ Hey, hey, (bop shuop) yeah, she say ya do. (Bop shuop) ~ "Boys" - The Beatles

JIGGA FLASH!... 85... Darnit....

Jim - I'm so happy to finally be back at school... I had to take 3 tests today, but that's okay... For once I missed school and nothing really happened. In 8th grade... I missed only one day out of the whole year and we did the milkshake lab in science and like 1/3 of the school got detention... okay... maybe not 1/3... but whatever... it was at least 150... The debut hellogoodbye EP IS WONDERFUL!!!!! Their music is so fresh... Estrela has done it again... Their EP is going to be awesome... I've heard all of the songs on it... either from the shows or from what they've put online... I love them... The new Senses Fail Album is going to kick monkey butt. I've only heard 2 of the song for the new album... considering I've never been to one of their shows... YET!... A band's second CD is usually their best... if you don't count singles... But anyway... I think Colleen's getting that for my belated B-day present (**HINT HINT**). Blah... Musical Theatre auditions on Friday..... I think... so... I gotta get ready... I just need to learn the song now... I don't know all the words perfectly... but I'll get their in a day... or two... I need to study for my Spanish essay tom.... grr... I hate being forced to study...
::Daily Lyrics:: - [Insert some hellogoodbye lyrics here once I learn them] - Hellogoodbye

Feeling Better...

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Jim - Feeling quite ill.... I better go lie down now.... grrrr..... musical theatre audition next week.... they just keep on coming.... death...
::Daily Lyrics:: - ... think of your own... I'm going to bed....

I'd Probably Still Ask You If I Knew...

Jim - I'm about to die..... I'm trying out for the opera in chorale tomorrow... If I don't come back with my pride, you know what happened to me... and I'd appreciate it if no one made fun of me after I get finished.... I'd much rather a "Good Job Jim... But next time try --" or a .... "To be honest, that sucked... but you still did a good job"... blah... I need some coffee....anyway... *sigh*... I might as well commence this thing... One song is too fast... the other I have pitch problems...... and I have to solve all that tonight....
The Band - yeah...... Right.....
::Daily Lyrics:: - don't like to work and I don't like to go to school/ The teachers think that I'm a girl and the kids they think that I'm uncool/ I'm just not interested in much of anything / Wouldn't want to be a president, don't want to be a king/ I just want to ride my skateboard just want to play my bass/ Every now and then strum a chord, sometimes land right on my face/ Have you any ideas? I can't tell by a chart/ I wanna do what he wants me to, I'm gonna do my part, yeah! ~ "Do and Don't" - MxPx

It's My Fault That It Fell Apart...

Jim - I guess sometimes life could be more exciting... but nothing is really happening... just chapstick, chap lips, and things like chemistry... I've been writing more music than ever and experimenting to take my music to levels I never dreamed of until now... when I say my music, I don't just mean my band - I mean my band, piano, guitar, and vocals. Band wise, My band does happen to follow the melodic pop punk style of music. I'm breaking the rules of this genre and putting songs in 3/4, 6/8, 7/8 and some other time signatures that just don't appear in punk, hardcore, screamo, etc. No... I'm not exactly taking the band music down the Metal path, but I an setting new standards for my genre. Piano wise - I'm working on my music theory and taking my composing to the level of being able to perfectly transpose anything I play (whether something I learned or something I made up, or making up at the moment) into any key. I'm also working on being able to take any random 5 notes (like D, F, G#, C, B) in the order that they appear and write music using them... I know that it's very well possible with any combination. Vocally, I'm working on getting voice lessons. I've already improved a lot since I joined chorale. I plan on majoring in music in college and vocal production is going to the direction I'm going to take. ANYWAY... I got my Greb on with Noah in Biology. That was a fun lab. Anyway... I've had the song "Until The Day I Die" stuck in my head for a few days now because Noah sings it in Biology, so I sing it as well.... I have to teach him how to scream better though... He'll get it with practice. Blah!... you know that I die too, I die too...... grrr....... get it out of my head!!!
The Band - I'm pressing on... Frontmen are nice though (HINT, HINT!!!)
::Daily Lyrics:: - You were everything I wanted/ But I just can't finish what I've started/ There's no room left here on my back/ It was damaged long ago/ Though you swear that you are true/ I still pick my friends over you ~ "My Friends Over You" - New Found Glory

The Hardest To Pretend Is that We Never Quit...

Jim - ANOTHER crazy week. But that's okay... Report Cards wasn't my usual delight because I dropped. I've been flustrated with my college grades as well. I recently got back 4 grades, B-, B, B-, and (thank God) an A. The A was on the review test oddly enough. It was easier than the individual tests. I really have nothing much else to say except that I changed the layout of my journal. I thought I should fix up the place so that it would be more inviting...
The Band - Must... Get... Frontman!....
::Daily Lyrics:: - So come in, we're all inside of nothing/ The place where we live our lives/ And take all you want/ Because we aint got nothing to lose, we're always looking up ~ "Sesame, Smeshame" - The Early November