But Deep Down Inside, I Hoped I Was Wrong...

Jim - I feel like I should be mad or yelling at the world because my life sucks... or even rebuking my friends after reading something they wrote... but the truth is... I'm happy... no... I'm ready to get out of this quandary of death I tend to call home... but I'm not feeling as bad as I usually do about weekends... Maybe it's because I had such a good week before... I'm excited... I really hope I got into musical threatre... and if I didn't - I'm gonna feel like my life is stupid-pointless-spiraling into a nodule cutthroat-road to madness that will end in complete failure for the WHOLE year - then it will be directly followed by 1 - 3 weeks of depression... Aye me.... but!... no need to get depressed until tom.... and even then, it's going to be fun deciding my classes next year... I've got to make some hard decisions about my schedule next year... it's going to be hard deciding what courses to take (...that was repetitive...)... I mean - other than academic... if I don't make musical theatre, I'll have a whole hour open with nothing to do along with the other hour that's open that I filled with Heath & PC Apps this year... Then I got my 4 core classes and Chorale... Taking Spanish again is not an option.... I mean... it's gonna be the last alternative to my time... and I'll take almost ANYTHING but that class... I love Spanish... but I I don't' like Spanish class... I don't need that to lower my GPA... I want to take Music Theory... or Men's Chorus again... but I also need to take PE again so I can graduate...unless I don't take a lunch again like I did this year... BLAH.... PLEASE!... Help me out here guys... I'm open for suggestions
::Daily Lyrics:: - Breathe this life away from me/ A breath away will always be/ How you, you and me will always be/ Take my last breath its your to keep/ With a gun in her hand she's my shooting star... ~ "Breathe" - A Cutthroat Kiss