have another drink and drive yourself home

Maybe its getting easier?

nah. who am I kidding?
nothing is ever easy.
but at least I have small stretches of feeling "complete"

I'm absolutely stressing out about things I have to pay for. and even though I know I have to save for certain things, I somehow end up spending it on something or someone.
but it's not only that. I'm worried cuz of my band's seemingly limited income. due to a mixture of their lack of having jobs & ability to save.
I'm feeling a large burden of responsiblity on my shoulders... But I'm so determined to get things done that I'm willing to work for it all myself.
Failure isn't an option for me and I'm refusing to let anyone stand in my way.
So instead of purchasing things I need or want (a car, new clothes, food...), I'm focusing my finacial channels on career based elements.
If my whole band did this, I'm sure we'd be fine.
But I know not all are... which brings me back to the beginning...

I'm stressed.