nice going... really

I've been thinking about it. and I finally realized how I came to be such a boring person... haha
I just realized that I spent so much of my childhood alone. in my house. figuring out how to entertain myself... but unfortunately, I wasn't used to interacting and having fun with other people... at least in the since of being able to thing of something to do... I mean of course there was recess at school... but now that I think of it... it was always B.C. & Nathan during preschool-5th grade who pretty much decided what we were going to do.
another example of how I've always been a follower.
I've been battling my inability to lead & make decisions for other people for years now... I think I've made some headway... but I can still see obvious flaws.

random thought I suppose...

oh... and I've decided on my kid's names

Khaki Elise
Asher

I'm in love with those names :)

leave some!



haha
this is my favourite scene from STELLA
I wish this show wouldn't have been cancelled :(

BJ Appreciation Week

it's Brittany-Jim Appreciation week this week!
if you feel like giving me a BJ, then that's cool too! :P

I watched the lion king this weekend with kayleigh. its really a very nicely cut film. I think I might watch it again this week.
what's strange though is how I've been able to relate things like the lion king to my own life...
idk if I'll end up with a happily ever after

we had a party saturday... I guess I haven't been in a party mood as of late, but I decided to have fun this time. and I did. kayleigh, zach, meg, corianne & I all went skinny dipping drunk at like 3 in the morning. :P

I've also realized that I'm incredibly selfish when it comes to my best friend. I keep giving her a hard time about her bf because I don't like him. when really, I should support her... I promised her that no matter what I'd have her back and that we'd always be best friends.... but I can't seem to keep that promise.
I really love her. even if my other friend doesn't want me to talk to her... I'm going to continue to love her. because she's the one person that really truely knows me.

on the upside of things, my band has a new drummer and we're playing a lot of shows over the next 3 months.

I've been having weird thoughs, urges, & cravings...
idk...
hahaha
I'm confused, upset, although I feel like I'm making a little bit of headway in life.