ready & willing

I had an interesting conversation with my buddy megan yesterday.
We talked about our goals and love.
The things she said surprised me & comforted me. I feel like there is someone else who have the same ideals as I do.
someone who is just as ambitions
someone who has a simular outlook on life & love.

I kinda understand the captive feelings my friend sahra gets from living at home. haha.
I mean, I've only been living with her family a little while, and I feel secluded.
When I lived on my own, I got to hang out with my friends... but they live up north.
Not saying that I don't enjoy living with them, I do. I just miss my friends.

I'm kinda happy that she's rebuilding her life though.
I just want her to be happy.
So I'm trying my best to strip myself of what I may want and focus on what she wants.
Sometimes it's hard to put others before yourself... to deny yourself what you really want and need so that someone you love is happy. but that's the heart of love I suppose.

I'm still fighting with some decisions I have to make concerning my band.
I finally got the nerve (after my breif freeze/panic attack) to take the next steps to doing what I need to do in order to suceed.

it's a rough trek.
but I guess I'm a bit more rough this time.

... this time.