as one door closes...

So I'm finally back home after my 5-day adventure in Georgia.

I guess I decided to go home for several reasons... and the results of which were good and bad.

The biggest issue of course was to make amends with my mother. our broken relationship had really carried on far too long and it was getting sort of ridiculous. I'm just as stubborn as she is, but someone had to break the silence. and I decided to step up and be that person.
Unfortunately, it didn't go very well. As usual... we didn't really talk... in fact, every time we talked, it was here streaming for 30 minutes at a time about how I'm a terrible person, why I'm a shame to the family, and how I'll always be a failure.
So I've washed my hands of the situation. I have to live my life and if she can't support me, then I'll have to leave her behind.
it sounds kinda cold hearted... and maybe it is... but I know her. and she's very set in her ways... it's pretty much over.

Other than that, I visited my highschool. a few teachers made me promise to go back to college soon. which I do plan on doing when the time comes again.
It was great seeing some of the younger kids that have yet to graduate.
my family.

I also spent a lot of time with Steven. we worked on 3 new songs for The Strange View. I have one of them stuck in my head right now. I'm so happy with how they've come out so far. TSV is gonna make an awesome comeback! :)
We picked up his tux and got ready for prom & such. He & Liz was SOOOO cute. I went with them to take the pre-prom pictures and I took a few with them... my kids are growing up...

I also found a lot of things around the house that reminded me of so many things of how I grew up... from the 100s of pictures drawn & stories written... to books read & random keepsakes... I brought a few of them back with me... if I could have, I would have brought it all.

I also went on a date with a friend I used to be involved with kinda... It was a lot of fun. we talked a lot and I started to feel close to her again... but then there came a point in the evening where there was a climax. and I realized something very very important.
and when the revelation came, I knew that if I didn't take it, I would regret it forever. and if I did and it didn't work out, that there may be turning back to how I came to view life 6 months ago.

so I'm closing a door on a relationship of 18 years.
re-realizing where I came from and where I'm going.
and wrapping up the chapter of something that began to change my life about a year ago.



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