After spending some time thinking about life & what has become of me, I've decided to hit the reset button.

I've gone back into "fuck it" mode.

I seriously can't believe how much life has side tracked me from what I'm supposed to be doing. Even to the point where I was willing to drop everything for one person.
That's seriously so weak of me. I'm pretty ashamed of what I've done after I've told myself I wouldn't for years.

But I've regained focus.
I'm ready to continue the progression and I've never felt better.

of course, the last time I went with this, I ended up regretting it for a long time... which is probably why I drifted to where I have been over the past 6 months. But I've decided that there will be a time for that later in life when I don't have an internal conflict of interests to deal with.

Haha. Derek picked me up from work today. we went to a to the all you can eat buffet in the Walpole Mall. dear god... I ate so much. a good 4 plates of food. I seriously have not eaten that much food at once or even in one day for months.

My band is going on tour soon!! that is, if everything works out.
I really miss being on the road and meeting new people everyday. it's gonna be a LOT of fun.
So I think I'm gonna be on tour most of June & probably some of July & a lot of August.

I can't wait to see my friends next week. I really think going home for a week is gonna help me put so much of my life back in prospective... to remind me of who I am, where I came from, and where I'm going.
I kinda wanted my best buddy to come with me... it would have made things 10x more fun and a lot less awkward. but she has other things to attend to I suppose.
oh well. fuck it.

leave some! :)



I think I've idolized Tony Jaa. hahaha. he kicks ass!
This is one whole take. 4-minutes of one shot!
sooo sick